The Beginning of 2011

So this year has been actually been okay. I have the best friends and I could'nt ask for better ones. They are so much fun even though it might seem lame, we always make it our own no matter what. Already this year I kind of feel left behind, more friends are moving on and sometimes I feel like I'm not. Don't get me wrong I love where I'm at, but sometimes I just wonder what my life would be like if I wouldn't have changed and I would have just stayed on the path that I was on.  Someone once said that "It's not the destintaion, it's the journey", but sometimes I would just like to know what the outcome will be, cause no fortune teller could have predicted my life (or maybe they could). I could have got my patriarchal blessing and they I know that would have helped, but considering the circumstances I just dont feel right about it. Sometimes I just don't understand some people, they are so judgmental but they know that their god still loves them, but if I do one wrong thing that he doesn't love me or except me for who I am. I know that some will never understand, and that is okay, but don't treat me different because of it. Also don't try and change my mind if I want to change I will I just don't see it in my future right now. No one reads this so it doesn't even matter that I just babble on about my life and write my frustrations out, but sometimes just writing is enough..

Time Flys

This year has gone by so fast, it is almost 2011 and it all seems unreal. This year has had its challenges, but it had also been so much fun. As this year ends I hope that all challenges that face my family and I will all work out okay. I have lost some friends this year, but i also have gained some of the best ones as well. Even though some of my friends don't approve of the things that I am doing, I hope that they will soon just be friend and don't try and change me unless I ask or need it. I may not be the same person that i was, but I am still me and you shouldn't judge or try and "save" me from what I have become. I am still trying to figure everything out, and if I change along the way I hope that you will still be the friend that I once had, because you have changed as well.